Complicated..Haiz

Sry And Sry again ya..recently so busy and lazy to updates my bloq..Sometimes i wanna write it down my feelinq on the bloq bt sometime there is somethinq that just keep at my hearts more better..bt when problem gt keep at heart the feelinq are so lame..Recently really happen alot of thq in my life..i so feel so complicated to write down my feelinq rite nw..i m really a stupid dumb pig..y i been fall in love again? cant just i be single 4ever...aiks..god really like to ply me..When i m really serious on the relationship time..on the next days i recieve a funny sms.."All iS Just A Misunderstand"..cool..once i recieve dis sms i start gt a lame feelinq and so moody sia..i donno wad m i qoinq to do ue only gt confident and start believinq on me ? Its ok..i wil try to be patient and do somethinq to show dat i really change and my love too is true..

~QUIT CLUBBINQ
~QUIT SMOKINQ
~QUit Drinkinq ALchohol

~gambateh kudasai to myself ~

Tired x.x

O.O~ seem like i kinda long bo update again..haha today awake kinda early sin gt free time on9 awhile hehex...In my life there is nothinq speacial goinq happen i just pass days by days doinq same thq nia..LOL ~ I m so excited dat my BABY Blackie MYVI is gettinq birth soon at next week..wakaka..waitinq for so long..finaly i can wait til my Baby get birth le...is really so nice dat is can be birth be4 my b"day reach n0rhx ^^~ anyways guys i already decided to celebrate my b"day at ORIENTAL 31march at 9pm...hope ue will really attend and enjoys wif me dat time...actually i hav a b"day wish dat i never do it n became true be4..every year also hope dat my wish wil come true bt..i noe dat until dis year it wil never dream come true also...last thursday offday nothinq do go hang out wif jmin n yeksoon go coffee island eat and ply bowlinq...ply bowlinq lo zzz makinq me nw whole body so pain dis few days kanasai..samore everyday nt enough sleep..haix..gai nia..today the weather seem goinq to raininq soon..it makinq me feel like dowan go to work le..bt at the end how also i must go..tired arr...

Ohh yeah~

Yeah..finaly my pc are back..wakaka..i can on9 at home j0rhx bak..hmmm..i feel myself lucky n0rhx dis few days..everyday gamble at my workinq place there win money..hiak hiak..today ko win rm 1xx n0rhx nt bad.. hope my luck forever wil never end..haix..bt too bad..tml is the last days de i cant gamble at workinq place de..T.T last days of new year..y so fast finish eh cny...! Bo bien liao..hope tml wil win win win alot arrr...Recently life style are just normal n simple ..everyday just work,sleep and on9 nia..everyday just keep repeat doinq same thq aneh..bt good also la..like dat i can keep money neh..LOL..the funny thq is..last few days i go cut my hair..my hair nw look like sozai..or maybe can say as coconut hair? haha..sometimes i c myself at mirror i also can smile myself..lol..funny...Nw just wishinq my hair fast grow bak nia..XD

Drunk Days Again x.x

LOL..yesterday was a offdays again..err actually nt offday ba..i diao di go take leave and rest wan enjoys eh...yesterday kinda early already wake up j0rhx n0rhx..bt awake le bt nothinq do..kaka..lucky afternoon le W n Coey jio me out de...recently just always go out wif dem..they quite funny and i like argue wif dem =D haha..aiyoo..they jio me go out bt never told me wan go whr n i just call dem direct come fetch me at my home nia...izzit so nice dat i no need be a driver ? nt really..= = i hav to pay that petrol money for them n drive their car..swt.. haha..drivinq go out wif dem..bt they nt really noe wan go whr also..just round here round there wif car nia..after dat we go to gurney drive have somethq to eat awhile..den nite they say gt BBq and steambot at Coey "da jie" house..so i just folo lo...aduii..they like do thq last minit n0rhx..last minit ka lai wan buy dis 1 buy tat 1 and find table and blalala..mafan x.x ! erm..after around 8smthq nite we reach at Coey "da jie " home d bt nothinq is ready at all..lolx..me hav to go there..start fire at "hua tua" = =! after eattinq finish steambot and bbq i go hav a bath and cloth while waitinq their girl to ready their thq also then we direct go to mois de..alah..go ka mois eh si stild gt so many ppl..= =! c le also sien...too many ppl at mois really beh syok eh !hahaha..dat time i don really wanna drink so much eh..bt hor..haix..y give me c tio "Her" ar..make my mood spoil and just wanna drink..samore i wan drink nt all glass on the rock eh la..siao eh meh... - - ! after a shortwhile..GG..i m drunk again..dis time i drunk til the most gai eh...atlast need W fetch me go bak..samore nt drop me at my home bt is drop at Coey da jie home there...LOL..~ i nt really remember so much thq and wad i do when i drunk eh time..when i awake time i just noe me at Coey da jie eh home nia..then after dat..i drive W car and fetch her alonq and bak home n0rhx me.. =]

@.@ C N Y ~

Wakakaka..finaly cny mood is goinq finish de soon n0rhx..dis year take quite alot angpao and win abit of money at gamble ba..consider quite lucky..actually cny or nt to me just same nia..i stild continue workinq everyday never take leave at all..until yesterday ka got offday 1 days rest nia...yesterday afternoon just go to gurney havinq a movie and lunch wif my jimui nia...urmm..after dat..i go meet my fren W n Ying at gurney drive there eat again..they said later on wanna go to beach side "pang pao" lol xD wakaka..sigh* after a moment they goinq bak lo..then i was drivinq alone go to AI Lounge drink while waitinq for them...=.= while waitinq those girl i was drink til abit blur blur and sleepy de...OK after i recieve her call i only go there..reach there also almost 12.00 am de n0rhx..owhx..i kinda enjoys when go beachside although me and them don talk n ply fool so much...i prefer layinq at the top of the sand and enjoyinq watching star ,fireworks and get blow by winds...i dam like dis feelinq ,making feel comfortable and relax...owhx owhx after a moment nia..W say she hungry again ?lolx size so small bt so "gao eat" faint* then we was goinq to MCD eat..haha..we talk alot of funny thq and do alot weird thq when was drivinq time...=D hmmm..after finish eattinq supper they wanna go home de n0rhx..i le? i hav no choice dat my godsis just nw already called me alot time call me go fetch her..i hav to go and fetch my godsis and drop her at YES"~ Wad a mafan a godsis i hav ,SWEAT nia ! after done droppinq her..i bak home lo..while layinq at bed time...my mind was always thinkinq about her face =] *Thx for the accompany and i wil be miss ue muchie W ~

4-2-10 Makinq Givinq Decide

Hehex..4/2/10 was my offday againx..finaly tat i hav already done all my stupid lesen thq lurhx..later goinq take my dumb new lesen that cost rm 1k above =.=! extra waste eh..bt nvm la my car out soon iwil feel worth de..dat days..i was hanginq out wif my fren go to prangin and shoppinq..erm..nt really buy alot la..just buy jor a pairs of shoe ,cloth and short pant only..buy 3thq nia already cost rm 2xx de? lolx..cny cloth just gt 2suit nia..stild need buy 2more suit lo..i cant imagine hw much i need spend some for next 2suit..=( any1 spare me some money for shoppinq? aiyooo...after dat nite i go to cc itech ply game wif shiye n jmin..around 1smthq am like dat le..we sin go to YES drink n0rhx..acuattly i nt really wan go there de..i n0e dat she was workinq over there..in my heart i don feel wana go bt stild feel like wana go there c her le..haix..wad m i thinkinq about ? dat time when i reach there..i c tio her..i noe she c tio me also bt..she doinq me like invisible don even come say HI to me ? haix..from dat days start i already n0e the reason y we cant be2gether bak...

Is nt becoz i hav no confident to lub her bak..is becoz i CANT LUB her anymore de..no matter hw near the distance between me and her in reality world...bt in the heart we already far aways from each other de..me and her just a 2 different ppl de world de...since dat days over..i think i already start give up de or maybe i already been tired to be suffer le...last time when i everytime i thinked of her..i feel so lonely and feel wana go get alchohol and make myself drunk to make myself don think so much nonsens...bt nw..i never do dis stupid thq le..my brain like washinq machine startinq slowly n washinq aways "she" in my memory le..4gt about her is a good thinq for me ? hmmm...bt however also..sometime i wil meet tio her eh also..bt tat time i think i already be strong n i m wil be just treatinq her just like a normal fren only ba...HOPE i really could do it..=] god bless me..

Sry for it Ms.Y..i don really mean wan to hurt ue...i n0e dat u lub me n wana be wif me bt sorry..i m really nt in ready wan to be any relationship yet for rite nw...i hope ue really could understand my feelinq...maybe time wil change everythq soon...

I MISS UE

Aiks..i donno how to say izzit wednesday is my good days or unhappy days ? thats days was my fren b"day i go to a pub name "yes" to find them and just think wanna hav few drink and sing few song only..mana tau..i c dao my ex gf over there...is already very long i never saw her or even sms n call her..once i c her donno y i feel hapi n samore unhapi..? i dono even wad feelinq i hav also..after dat she saw me too..she come n hug me and said a sry to me dat she havinq a accident last month and lost my contact..i was really so surprise wad she told me..and my really glad that she stild ok and nothinq..! Thats day she was busy workinq serving cust..hav no much chance to chat wif me also...bt anwaysy after bak home i was havinq a phone chat wif her..after she finish chatted wif me at phone i understand tat myself i really misunderstand her alot thinq le...actually..since the days she went aways from me..my heart stild haven give up on her,i m just forcing myself to try 4gt her..bt i cant really lie-ing myself..i noe i stild lub her alot..everynite when i going to bed i always think about the memories dat me and her 2gether be4..everytime in my dream i always c her face hauting me...Now..i gt chance to contact her bak or maybe chase her bak le ? bt y i like confident to tell her tat i stild lub her..? i really hav no idea wad i really should do rite nw?..bt i really hope dat BABY ue could really come bak to me..i so need ue...i m really so miss ue..i m dam really crazy wif ue..i wish could c u everyday smiling infront of me...i lub ue Shu yi..GOD PLS BLESS ME